Don't lose your mind...lose your marbles

Why is she such a psycho?

why is she such a psycho??


We've all heard the saying, we're all different and that's what makes us special. But some people are just DIFFERENT in their own special way. 


The reason I ask this question, is because, from time to time we meet individuals who don't exactly conform to the norm of society. That's not always a bad thing mind, but most of the time it is. 


So I was sat with a friend after work, a few days ago, and we were just chatting. She told me about a psycho 'friend' she met whilst her stay at halls during University. Whilst I exchanged my story about another girl I had come across during my time at university, I decided her story was far more psychotic than mine. 


Anyway, this girl I met at Uni, was a girl who worked at reception and had come to assist my check in (which consisted of noting down any previous damage the room had before I occupied it). Now this job usually took ten minutes tops, but then, why did she end up staying in my room for an hour and a half? Well to cut a long story short, she stayed behind to tell me how she always had premonitions. To top it off, she got all wide eyed, and claimed I happened to star in one of her 'premonitions'. And that we would be best friends. She did go into her premonitions quite a bit more after that chatting away, whilst I made subtle hints at the time, and that she should really go. But she just didn't get the hints so finally I literally got my work clothes out and said I'm changing and leaving in 10 minutes which was her queue to leave! 


Anyway, my friends story was by far worse and she was stuck living with a psycho girl for half a year. Where this psycho would just casually walk into her room, whilst she is sleeping and just stand there. OR screaming at her claiming she's after her boyfriend. Then chasing her boyfriends car half way down the street to give the residents a live viewing of something out of Eastenders? Weird? Or what?


So it comes down to this. Why is she such a psycho? Was the former desperate for friends ? Was the latter known as what they call a "psycho girlfriend" or just lonely? Truth be told, we'll never know. 

Why So Negative?

Adopting the right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one.
Hans Selye 


Attitudes are contagious.  Are yours worth catching?
Dennis and Wendy Mannering

Why is it that so many people of this generation are so negative? They start the week off with a negative feeling; the general perception of how Mondays are blue. The thought of facing another work week doesn't help matters. But why do we feel this way, when we know that without work we would probably bore ourselves senseless. I know that I particularly look forward to my days off, but once I'm living them I find myself thinking, I could have worked today...I don't really mind, simply because I'm bored! So instead of feeling blue every Monday morning, tell yourself how work is always there providing you a sense of feeling. Bringing in an income which we can't live without. And keeping you healthy!


Its not just work, that we are negative about, there are so many things other things in life. Exams, waking up, or washing the dishes. We feel like these are chores, but when it's all psychological. We can be easy on ourselves if we really want to be. Just to cut out some unnecessary stress. I mean, aren't we already stressed enough? Why not start that revision as early as possible? Why not choose a bedtime that will help us live the next day with a positive outlook? Or why can't we just get a dishwasher? ;)


Sometimes I think maybe we are being brainwashed to feel such negative feelings. After all, it is clearly mind over matter. If something doesn't matter hugely, then don't mind! Also, as mentioned in the above quotation ~ Attitudes are contagious; are your's worth catching? If the answer's no, then make then worth catching! Put that smile back on your face! Treat yourself and be grateful.


However sometimes we feel helplessly negative because we are genuinely being wronged by others. You may have been a victim of assault, or bullying. You may have had a hard upbringing and these things are bound to have an affect on your outlook on life. But time heals and as you move on, wash away that pain. Wash away the negative and embrace the positive with open arms. Make life that little bit easier and you'll be wanting to wake up smiling. Not just that, but you'll also fall asleep with a big grin on your face.


All you need to do is positively reinforce yourself each and everyday. Life is short, so live it happily ever after! (Even if this doesn't truly exist) Make it exist in your mind.

Short Story 1

Flash Fiction - Get Money or Die trying.

It was a grim November morning, one that was typical of the North. His leather jacket hugged his muscular torso, right up to the stubble under his chin; his matching gloves rolled up into fists besides his body. He unclenched one, to pull the hood over his hair, keeping his gaze low. Unknown faces went by doing their everyday business. Zeth was here to do his.

He approached the automatic doors and waited for an old lady to walk out. He hung back for a moment.

“Beep beep beep beep beep”. The life machine sounded in his head.

This was it he thinks, it’s now or never.

As he entered he glances over at the extensive queue. His stomach rumbles; he can’t remember the last time a morsel passed his lips. Growing impatient he joins the queue watching each cashier in turn.

“Your son doesn’t have much time left Sir. We can’t find him a heart transplant”

Finally a desk became available. He walks over to the counter.

“Hello, how can I help you?”

‘STAY CALM. FILL THE BAG UP WITH AS MUCH MONEY AS YOU CAN. DO NOT RAISE AN ALARM. I HAVE A GUN.” Read the note. He passes it to her with a faint smile.

“Is...Is it erm a deposit you’re making today sir, or a with-withdrawal” the cashier stutters.

He fits a small bag under the glass pane. He wasn’t interested in anything more than he needed. The alarm goes off. He pulls it out. BANG! Red discolours his leathers.

“Police here! Put your hands in the air where we can see them!”

Zeth pauses. This is it he thinks once again. Zeth raises the weapon to his head. Another Bang! It rockets through his body, creating an earthquake of a blast behind him. He can wait for his son now, when he arrives.

Mums

Our Mums

Are Our Saviors

A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie.
~Tenneva Jordan

The sweetest sounds to mortals given
Are heard in Mother, Home, and Heaven.
~William Goldsmith Brown

“A mother is someone who will make a marriage work for the sake of her children.”

Dedicated to all the amazing mothers out there – My Mum’s my world. 

I’ve always been dearly attached to my mum, as many of you out there will be too. I was particularly needy of her, when I was a little child, I was literally inseparable from her. I would hold my mothers’ dress from behind and follow her around EVERYWHERE! That was until my cousin’s began to taunt me and named me ‘mother’s tail’.

My mum is definitely by far, the most amazing person i know. She has never been able to bare it, seeing a tear roll down my cheek. She would quickly scoop me up and fight away the pain. Even now, she would embrace me in a gigantic hug. Because lets face it, I’m still a cry baby!

A mother is a person who ushered us into this world, and will always have that special spot reserved for, in our hearts. Some of you may not give much thought to your mother’s because their presence is something you have always known. You take advantage of this and fail to realise that there is a possibility that maybe one day, you will actually outlive her, and then, do you really want to live in regret? Do you want to torture yourself with the ‘what ifs’?

Understandably everyone’s relationship with their mother’s is different. Whilst one may show their love with the highest degree of respect, another may relate to her in a more friendly way. But the bottom line is, if you are raised by your mother and she is still around, trying her utmost best to keep you fed and protected, what right do you have to give her any pain and suffering? A mother will always remain by your side, as a protective figure, reassuring you, caring for you, and giving up her own dreams and feelings to replace them with yours.

Just think about it. How many times have you heard a mother, either on television, or books, or even real life say “We’re trying again for the sake of the kids”. This shows how unselfish a mother can be. How she will always put her children first and herself last. No matter the pain and suffering her marriage has bought she will try again and again. What gratitude do we give her? Not much. We may be the perfect daughter or son, but still this does not even come close to repaying the debt. That debt is impossible to pay back. Because foolishly we will still dismiss them when angry, rebuke them, or even stop all contact with them, but their love is the antonym of a candle flame – we are unable to diminish it.   

Motherhood, in short, is a sacrifice. And those who have mothers but no children of your own, you will only realise what it is truly like when you have kids of your own. Appreciate them now; before it is too late. 

http://www.legalandgeneral.com/life-cover/confused-about-life-cover/articles-and-guides/value-of-a-mum.html

Wanting what you can't have

Want What You 

Can’t Have?

When we take a seat and look at the bigger picture, this will always be the case. We always want what we can’t have, or sometimes, what we don’t have. This does not even have to just relate to relationships and attraction to people, it applies to all sorts of objects. For instance, at this precise moment in time, I have a drawer full of chocolate, and usually I’m content with just that, but talking of wanting what we can’t or don’t have, right now, I would kill for a packet of sweets. Anything would do, from Rowntrees, Chewits or even Haribos but all I want is some sticky sweet to get my teeth stuck into!

Usually, when referring to this particular phrase of ‘wanting’ it is applied mainly to relationships and attraction towards someone. Many may have been in the situation where, you like someone, but that someone doesn’t like you? Or maybe you are committed to someone, and yet you get the wandering eye. Fact is, humans will never truly be happy with what they have, be it a drawer full of chocolates or a loving relationship. Would I say this is a weakness? Well, that’s debatable. I’d say it’s a tendency within us to always strive for change, for variety and for the need to want. Sometimes, when there is nothing wrong with the relationship one will still want or prefer someone or something else.

How do we make something so precious in our minds that we are pining over it, rather than just letting it go? After all if something is unattainable isn’t it just common sense to move on and be happy anyway? Maybe it’s just part of everyone’s DNA or is it Destiny?

The funny thing is, we will carry on wanting what we can’t have, simply because once it is actually attained, it loses its mysteriousness and it’s thrill of our imagination – the thoughts and feelings we have when thinking of it, are far more elevated than the real thing. Rest assured, if I had a drawer full of Chewits right now, I’d be dreaming of velvety chocolate melting in my mouth. And besides, if we got handed everything we ever wanted on a silver plate, life would be a big bore.

Its not as simple as this for many of you, and at times, this feeling of wanting someone or something you can’t have takes over your mind, body and soul. But remind yourself, of how short life is, remind yourself of destiny and that if it is meant to be, nothing and no one will be able to come in your way. So give yourself a break, put on a smile, but more importantly feel the smile and carry on living.

We may not always get what we want, but we will always be able to live it in our imagination, and the imagination is always perfection. The perfect version of the thing itself; that of we pine for. Still, those sweets in the picture look too damn heavenly. Wanting what I can’t have? I Think So!

You'll always be allowed to dream - They may take away 'freedom' but they can't touch your dreams.